It’s probably been quadruple the amount of days since I have been trying to get direction and clarity about what I actual want to do with my comedy and acting career. Classes galore have I taken. I asked myself, “Hey, do you want to cut your loses and just put all of this aside?” It was real. Very serious. Very truthful. No shame. No regrets. Just honest.
No.
It’s not the investment over years and years. The time. The talk. The discussions with people about “my dreams”. It’s not the money. Gosh! So much money poured in. I could have invested that and gotten MUCH better returns to date, at least. It’s not that I couldn’t, but it aside. I’ve developed wonderful skills that serve me well. I know tech, decks, systems. I am very well positioned in a career.
It’s that
I want
to keep forging ahead.
Perhaps, it’s simply because I believe there is something there and I have to give my self a chance to keep digging.
Perhaps a fools errand.
But…
It is a journey (I’m rolling my eyes internally).
I did have a very frank talk with myself about prioritization. About fear. About holding back. The details I will not bore you with.
Onward and upward.